I’m just gonna be honest here and let you know that recently life has SUCKED. It has sucked BIG TIME. Crappy thing after crappy thing has happened and it seems to be never ending.
Bad days, failing relationships, coffee spills, drama, awkwardness, tension, worry, and anxiety have been consuming my entire life. It’s like one thing after the next and I’m just sitting here waiting to catch a break, but it seems like it’s never coming.
It has all been wearing on heart like I’ve never experienced before. Every little crappy thing happening seems to put more and more cracks and dents into my little heart, leaving me to try and hold it all together so I don’t fall apart completely. It all came to a breaking point the other day and I was left with two options. I could either throw myself a pity party and sulk, which accomplishes absolutely nothing, or I could go to the only One who can put my breaking heart back together again. So, I did the latter.
I humbly presented myself, my broken heart, and my crappy circumstance to the Most High and said, “Jesus, have Your way in every aspect of my life. I’m laying this at your feet and please do not let me pick it back up.”
I opened up my Bible and my amazing Life Lived Beautifully study (highly recommend all of her studies) and I let God get to work on my soul. He led me to Matthew 11:28-30.
“Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
Y’all, this hit me hard. Jesus led me to this verse and He broke my heart, but in a good way. He broke it in a way that put it back together again. It’s kinda like when you break a bone, sometimes the doctor has to break it again in order to fix it. So the Great Physician broke me again so that He could put me back together the right way.
He saw me, He saw my broken and hurting heart, He saw my crappy circumstance, and He was just waiting for me to realize that I couldn’t get through it without Him. He gently pursued my heart and He waited patiently for me to come to Him and give it all over to Him and when I finally did, He healed me in more ways than one.
He open my eyes to see that sometimes He puts people in our lives for reasons and seasons, and sometimes He prunes people, things, and habits out of our lives. It’s for the best even though it hurts. There’s purpose behind the pain we go through.
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28
He opened my eyes to see that sometimes we are too close to a situation to see it for what it really is. It’s like a fire, the closer you get to it, the more uncomfortable and painful it is, but when you step back, you feel the warmth and see the beauty it holds. Sometimes we just have to adjust our focus.
“So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” 2 Corinthians 4:18
He opened my eyes to see that I was so focused on the stumbling blocks in front of me that I lost sight of the prize ahead of me. Does that sting a little? Yeah, it did for me too. We get so caught up on the bad things that happen that we forget that the end goal and prize is Jesus. He is and will always be the ultimate prize. When we take our eyes off of the prize, life starts getting crazy and we lose control.
“… forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead. I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Jesus Christ.” Philippians 3:13-14
So, I say all of this to you to tell you that regardless of your circumstance or situation, run to Jesus, He is the prize. He is the Great Physician when our hearts are broken. He is our coach cheering us on as we are running this race. He is our comforter when things don’t go as planned. He is the Most High and the Almighty when things are looking down. All in all, He is our soul purpose. So, let’s go discover Him together. Let’s Discover Our Soul Purpose. Are you with me, sister?