Wow, wow, wow. The last few months have been a whirlwind. God has opened many doors and answered many prayers.
Let me start by saying, the last 3 years of my life have been pretty stagnant. I was just taking it day by day with no clear direction or vision of where my life was headed. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and I felt a lot of pressure to get that figured out. I had no other option but to put Psalm 37:7 into motion, “Be still in the presence of the Lord, and wait patiently for Him to act.”
So yes, I waited… It’s basically human nature to cringe when we hear the word “wait”, because we like immediate satisfaction, and waiting is the opposite of that. I waited and I prayed, a lot.
I prayed for direction and guidance. I prayed for God to open doors that He wanted me to walk through and to close doors that He didn’t want me to go through. I prayed for God’s will to be done above all else, which was basically my way of praying for my heart to be okay with whatever happened since God’s will happens no matter what. And even when I didn’t have anything left to pray about, as if the words just wouldn’t come anymore, I just sat there and whispered, “Jesus… Jesus…” Because even when I don’t have the words He still knows my heart, thank goodness. There were times that I would get so overwhelmed that I would just break down and cry because no matter how hard I prayed, I felt like God wasn’t answering my prayers. I felt like He might not be hearing me or maybe I just wasn’t hearing Him.
During these three years of waiting and praying, I experienced many trials. Some were tough, and some were very tough. But through each trial, I knew God was in the midst of all of them. Looking back, I know with complete confidence that I had to go through the things I went through during the last few years to get to the point I am at today. God resituated and readjusted many different areas of my life and they were all necessary changes that had to be made. Each and every trial that I went through was God’s way of shaping me into the woman I am today and for that I am so thankful. I truly and honestly wouldn’t change a thing.
So, I waited and prayed, and waited and prayed… And FINALLY I heard God’s gentle and powerful voice of guidance over the chaos and confusion of the world. No, it wasn’t His voice literally, but it was the Holy Spirit nudging me and moving my heart that I heard loud and clear. Once I saw His direction, I hit the ground running.
After three years of not knowing what my next step was, God had revealed exactly what He wanted me to do and exactly where He wanted me to go. I just knew it within my soul that it was God’s direction and not my own because of the overwhelming peace and excitement that He gave me. I was walking closely with the Lord and seeking Him earnestly, and when the Spirit moved, I knew it was Him.
Around March I felt a heavy stirring in my heart to start a Ministry for women. In May, I applied at Liberty University Online to get my Bachelor’s in Business Administration with a focus on Communications and I took a big step into “adulthood” and applied for an apartment. In June I applied for an internship at a local church as well as interviewed with them only to find out a week later that I got the internship (yay!), I got accepted into Liberty and signed up for classes, got invited to join the Honor Society, and a HUGE website asked me if they could publish one of my blog posts. My life went from zero to one hundred REAL quick, y’all. God has been moving is amazing ways and ALL the glory goes to Him.
So, I say all of this not to brag or gloat about how God is working in my life… But to encourage you to wait. This is why waiting is so important… It grows you, molds you, and teaches you. Like I said before, I had to go through the three years of waiting, trials, and stagnancy to get to where I am today.
Everybody is always waiting on something… What are you waiting on? How are you using your time of waiting? Are you wasting it by worrying and complaining? Or are you using this time for growth?
A wise woman once said, “Waiting is not about delayed answers to prayer, but about our hearts becoming more like the Lord’s.” Use your time of waiting to pray and earnestly seek the Lord. Use it to pray through things that God might want to prune you of. Ask the Lord what He wants to readjust in your life. Take the trials that you go through and learn from them because sometimes you win and sometimes you learn, but you never lose. And when you don’t know what else to pray, when you don’t have the words, just say the most powerful name of all, “Jesus… Jesus…” Declare His powerful name over your life. Even when you can’t hear His voice, just say His name.
I am so excited to see what God does through your time of waiting because it excites me to see how He worked through mine. How has God worked through your seasons of waiting? What advice do you have for other women? I’d love to hear from you! Are you currently going through a waiting period or are you are currently going through trials? Comment, email me, or message me on social media, I would love to pray for you.
Please pray for me during these next few months as many areas of my life are changing (all good things, all good things)! God is moving in incredible ways and I just want to thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for taking this journey of Discovering Her Soul Purpose with me. The best is yet to come, truly.